averyantonio:

I’m constantly turning to our human defense mechanism (“mental processes that enables the mind to reach compromise solutions to conflicts that it is unable to resolve.”) to cover up my negative emotions. I’m not so great on expressing or venting my feelings. I’m more of a keep-to-myself-hoping-it’ll-go-away” type of person. And it works!….well temporarily because it’s still all contained in my head. But I feel as though one day, as it’s building up now, it’ll all eventually eat me inside and i’ll end up breaking down.

I used to be like this, hiding all emotions until one day it got to be to much and i broke. My mothers like this too, and I’m terribly scared of the day she breaks again. I still have nightmares of that day.

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